Happy, Dating, and Single

Hello World,

I love life right now.  I want to keep trying new things.  I plan on buying a new guitar, my last one had a huge gap between the fret board and the strings.  I have realized that ( I don't know how bad I am at this) people are annoyed by hearing people's problems and complaining about things that they have no control of.  I am going to work on it.  Don't focus on things you can't control.  I have really struggled with attaching my feelings of what people think of me to my mood.  If a girl I like says hi to me or invites me to an activity I am on cloud 9 but if not then I over think things, and am in a horrible mood.  That is not good, and it is not fair to me and the rest of the world.  What am I going to do about it?  I am not sure, I am going to just be happy, or try to be.  I wonder if my friend Allison reads this, if she does she should text be back that bum never responded to my last text.  I had an enjoyable night with Katy I think I named her, yeah...  I am now at work listening to John Bytheway in a talk called "Especially for Young Single Adults: Who, When, and Why We Marry."  I think I have a problem with being negative with me being single.  I don't think I should talk about it anymore.  I have so many thoughts going through my head right now.  School, dating, post graduate life.  I want to be more careful with my expressions of my affection, I met an amazing person who inspired me to be better.  A good quote is by Bruce C. Hafen "During the time of courtship, always be emotionally honest in the expression of affection. Sometimes you are not as careful as you might be about when, how, and to whom you express your feelings of affection." Today, I am going to be happy and go fishing.  Here is the talk I listened too and a good quote that was shared in the talk.

http://byutv.org/watch/4c051846-936f-46ff-873c-b384c562b7e2#ooid=w2bTlqMTrF8tLRQBL4ghq2LeKkiAvHMn

"Don't date someone you already know you would not ever want to marry.  If you fall in love with someone you should not marry, you can't expect the Lord to guide you away from that person after you are already emotionally committed."  Bruce C. Hafen

Hello world, today has been alright.  I had the hopes of spending time with what did I call her...Katie?  But its almost 10 and I don't think its going to happen, but such is life right??  I need to start figuring out something constructive to do.  I heard a great quote by Bill Cosby today "Don't talk yourself into not being you, at any time!"  I have learned with dating is to be yourself, all of the good things and all of the bad things.  Don't try and be anyone else.  If someone doesn't like you for who you are then sad them.  Dr. Seuss said something along the lines of, be who you are and say what you feel because those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind.  I want a spouse who doesn't mind me.  I have a great friend named Allison Hazzard, hopefully I will be able to visit her in Logan again before I start school again.  I can't wait to leave Rexburg, Its a great place and all but I want a change, I want to go and meet new people, try new things, and hopefully find a spouse in the process.  The way things are going with Katie, I don't think anything will happen.  She doesn't seem to make much of an effort to spend time with me.  I try to spend time with her but its just exhausting when she doesn't reciprocate trying to spend time with me.  I am thinking about moving for a while, just for a change.  Just keep swimming right? 

Blog Change!!

I guess I wanted to change the title and purpose of my blog.  I am thinking this will be more therapeutic for me than anything but I hope some good people stumble upon it.  My name is Braden Dennis, I am 24 almost 25, going to school at BYU Idaho, single, and a Mormon.  It seems like people in the Mormon culture get married between the ages of 18-23.  It feels like that is when people are supposed to get married at least.  I am almost 25 and its been kinda rough going through the process of still being single.  I assume there are others out there and I hope to reach them and know that they aren't the only ones, because sometimes that is what I feel.  I feel that many of my friends, former roommates, and the various people I have met at church are married.  I am still single.  I am writing this in my journal of happiness and single life.  Its hard but that is my goal.  I am going to document it and see how it goes.  I decided to do this because today 7/22/12 I felt that life finally caught up with me and punched me in the gut.  What happened?  I know you're dying to know, juicy gossip right?  I have been going on dates with a girl, lets call her Katie.  She is an amazing person, I felt a connection with her unlike anyone that I have ever dated.  We have moved slowly and just gotten to know each other (which has been totally fine with me).  I of course want to date her eventually but still progress.  It seems like our relationship has become stagnant.  I told her I wanted to go forward at what rate I don't care as long as I don't become that "Gay Friend" and let me define "Gay Friend" which is the guy friend that a girl tells all of her problems but has no chance whatsoever dating.  I don't want to become that guy.  She is almost 6 years younger than me but, very mature from what I can tell.  I am a very social person so if I don't talk to people, it does me damage.  I get lonely and think to myself that I am not wanted and well, I am hard on myself.  When I do activities I don't like doing them by myself at all, but some I don't mind. So what am I going to do?  I always feel better after I go running.  I want to try and start running  before I leave at work each morning at 7:20am.  I love doing things outside so that is a thing that makes me happy.   Here is a good quote about life by Randy Pausch “The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.”

How to be happy:
http://www.purposefairy.com/3308/15-things-you-should-give-up-in-order-to-be-happy/

I am going to do these things and be happy,  I will write about how its going.  Have a good day!!

― Randy Pausch