I know I need to write more in this blog, I don't really do it in the hopes of having people read it but more to help me organize my thoughts and maybe help me figure out stuff. I feel so incomplete at times. I want to get away from Rexburg for a while. I just need a break, but I also need to "find myself". Right now I am in needs of an internship for either Winter semester or Spring semester. Here are both of my plans
- Defer from school for winter semester. (If I don’t find an Internship) Consequences:
- I will be kicked off of fast grad, but I can still take courses in the winter if I want but they have to be 300 level classes
- I will not graduate during the Fall of 2012 but Winter of 2013
- If I deferred Winter Semester I would then look for an internship for spring semester.
- I could then either stay in Logan for fall or go back to school.
- I don’t know where to live in Logan, and I really don’t have any money. I could live with my grandparents though.
- Go to School here starting in January. Consequences:
- I am not sure if my heart would be in it, I really don’t want to be here.
- My computer is dying and it would be hard to deal with it in some of my classes.
- I could still graduate in December 2012
So you can see my bind. I want to make a list of things I hate and love about life now, why…because I can
· Things I hate
o Facebook- I hate this because I feel like I waste my life on it and if someone really wants to keep in touch with me they will do it in a more personal way than stalking me occasionally.
o Texting- It’s so impersonal again; there is also so miscommunication and that fear when someone doesn’t text you back.
o Watching TV-Its so easy to do!!! I feel like it’s a lack of effort in working to do something entertaining. I feel like it does have its place but… it shouldn’t be very often.
o Cute girls that I am too afraid to ask out on dates for the fear of being “creepy”- there was a nice cute girl that worked in the lost and found this past semester that I wanted to ask out but… its my fear that I hate.
o Girls that I don’t feel like I can go after anymore.
o A great girl that is on a mission, that I don’t know what I should do about.
o My lack of smarts and lack of talents (they are not clearly visible to me, if I have any.)
o My lack of organization, I feel like I can be slightly messy at times.
· Things I love
o Disney Music- who in their right mind doesn’t like Disney music!!
o The feeling that I have when I get done with a long run!
o Spending time with my friends!
o Reading one of those addicting books!
o Spending time with a good friend that I can truly just talk to.
o Cast Iron pans J
o Trying new things, and having new experiences.
o To dress classy-like a nice colored shirt, and a nice tie, with some sweet slacks.
o Aggie Ice Cream!
o Meeting New people!
o Having an extra monitor for when I work in Excel!
o Excel!!
o Disney Movies, I said I hate TV, but I do love Disney!!!
o Talks!!!
o Learning!!!
I think this is all I want to write today!! I want to make a bucket list for this upcoming year and maybe some plans for the next few years, what do you think??
