What to do, What to do?

I know I need to write more in this blog, I don't really do it in the hopes of having people read it but more to help me organize my thoughts and maybe help me figure out stuff.  I feel so incomplete at times.  I want to get away from Rexburg for a while.  I just need a break, but I also need to "find myself".  Right now I am in needs of an internship for either Winter semester or Spring semester.  Here are both of my plans

• Defer from school for winter semester. (If I don’t find an Internship) Consequences:
•  I will be kicked off of fast grad, but I can still take courses in the winter if I want but they have to be 300 level classes
• I will not graduate during the Fall of 2012 but Winter of 2013
• If I deferred Winter Semester I would then look for an internship for spring semester.
• I could then either stay in Logan for fall or go back to school.
• I don’t know where to live in Logan, and I really don’t have any money.  I could live with my grandparents though.
• Go to School here starting in January.  Consequences:
• I am not sure if my heart would be in it, I really don’t want to be here.
• My computer is dying and it would be hard to deal with it in some of my classes.
• I could still graduate in December 2012

So you can see my bind.  I want to make a list of things I hate and love about life now, why…because I can

·         Things I hate

o   Facebook- I hate this because I feel like I waste my life on it and if someone really wants to keep in touch with me they will do it in a more personal way than stalking me occasionally.

o   Texting- It’s so impersonal again; there is also so miscommunication and that fear when someone doesn’t text you back.

o   Watching TV-Its so easy to do!!!  I feel like it’s a lack of effort in working to do something entertaining. I feel like it does have its place but… it shouldn’t be very often.

o   Cute girls that I am too afraid to ask out on dates for the fear of being “creepy”- there was a nice cute girl that worked in the lost and found this past semester that I wanted to ask out but… its my fear that I hate.

o   Girls that I don’t feel like I can go after anymore.

o   A great girl that is on a mission, that I don’t know what I should do about.

o   My lack of smarts and lack of talents (they are not clearly visible to me, if I have any.)

o   My lack of organization, I feel like I can be slightly messy at times.

·         Things I love

o   Disney Music- who in their right mind doesn’t like Disney music!!

o   The feeling that I have when I get done with a long run!

o   Spending time with my friends!

o   Reading one of those addicting books!

o   Spending time with a good friend that I can truly just talk to.

o   Cast Iron pans J

o   Trying new things, and having new experiences.

o   To dress classy-like a nice colored shirt, and a nice tie, with some sweet slacks.

o   Aggie Ice Cream!

o   Meeting New people!

o   Having an extra monitor for when I work in Excel!

o   Excel!!

o   Disney Movies, I said I hate TV, but I do love Disney!!!

o   Talks!!!

o   Learning!!!

I think this is all I want to write today!! I want to make a bucket list for this upcoming year and maybe some plans for the next few years, what do you think??

Bah Bah Bahly Oxenfree....meh

“If all you know is what you see with your natural eyes and hear with your natural ears you will not know very much” – Pres. Boyd K. Packer (this was a quote in the last talk I heard and I like it)

I havn’t written in a while, its been too long.  I guess I just don’t make time for it.  Its been a rough day.  I had an accounting paper due in my intermediate financial accounting class, I skipped my business law class to do it, then well honestly I just didn’t feel like going to class.  I was frustrated so I needed to get some things out, so I dropped off my paper to a friend in the class and came back home.  I know the best way for me to feel better is to work.  I did all of the dishes in my apartment  (which there were way too many) cleaned up everything.  There was stuff that had been lying down on the ground for a few weeks, I don’t know why people can’t clean up after themselves in a timely manner.  During this whole time I was listening to talks, which also calms me down, or just makes me feel better.  I first started with the one by Elder Snow that was given at devotional last week, then went on to two by Elder Ballard that were given at BYU , and finally ended with one by Elder Bednar about discernment.  Girls….bah.  I am not sure if I am ever ready for a relationship.   Its always drama with dating, the whole thought pattern of…should I text her, should I wait, should I, Should I.  Its ridiculous!  I guess its not even always drama but just really annoying.  So lets just do an experiment, I just texted someone at 12:29pm and said “wanna go do devo”  I know texting is overrated and I should be more of a man and call her or whatever but I really don’t care.  Not at least right now.  I still need to take a shower and get dressed before devo but just procrastinating.  I can’t wait for track today, it will feel nice to run.  I enjoy it but they coaches have been having some problems with people not going to meets that sign up ( I am guilty of that once) so I might not go to the meets anymore.  I really want to see what the average response time is for people’s responses to my texts.  I could whip it up in excel do different time periods (as in morning, day time, and evening) to see if there is a big change in one of those.  See this girl that I was mentioning before is great, and really cute.  But sometimes I feel like its really one way.  She will generally do things that I will invite her to but won’t text me unless I text her and yeah….It gets annoying.  Its something that I am used to though, it happens to everyone…right??  Does anyone else hate people that are twitterpaited (how do you even spell that) always talking about why this person or that person is so great! Yeah maybe its just because I am single, but such is life right???

Institute!!!!!111

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zCKiQciD0AUGreat Video About Institute!!!!!!  Watch it!!!!!!

Another Unskilled Morning

These last few days have been rather irritating, so first of all I am so unskilled at resolving problems.  Jake my roommate who  I do think is a great guy, is unskilled in remembering or being in the habit of cleaning up after himself.  So after a few days his stuff is everywhere, then about half of it will be cleaned up.  I don't understand why he feels so entitled to make the living room his bedroom. Well getting on to what I was really going to talk about, we kind of had an argument.  I had turned off the TV before I left, because it is rarely turned off so I just took it to myself to turn it off.  I should have asked him if he was going to continue to watch it.  I think that I am part of the problem with all of these arguments.  I have had one with two of my roommates.  I guess I don't think it was wrong that I asked him to clean up after himself, but I was very unskilled in the way I did it.  I am excited about next semester.  I am excited about meeting new people and having new experiences.  I am so grateful for this semester.  I have met a lot of great people, my Brazilian friends I would try and spell their names with out looking on facebook but I know I would butcher them well I will try, Vanessa, Tammi, Camilla, and Mayra are all great people! My FHE sisters are also great even though they prolly think I am less active, well at FHE at least, I have probably missed a few too many times, don't get me wrong, I like FHE most of the time but I just got busy.  I need to fix some things before next semester, try and figure out some things.  I am so excited about seeing some of my friends this upcoming year.  My friend Susie is coming back from Jerusalem.  As well as my friend Christine, who is an amazing woman.  Well I feel better now.  TTFN 

A new commandment

As explained in John 13:34-35 Others can know if we are disciples of Christ by our examples, and if we love people as he did. There are many times where we should act as a disciple of Christ for example if someone we know is ridiculed or made fun of because of the way they dress, I could see a disciple of Christ going and giving comfort to that person, I think the comfort would be very situational. Perhaps there was a new person at church, I could see a disciple welcoming that person, and making them feel as comfortable as possible.  I guess at times we all have to start to think what can I do that shows someone that I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.  I live with my roommates and they are the people that I have most contact with, because a disciple of Christ really loves someone, I could serve them, one thing that I do that I could see a disciple of Christ doing is writing thank you notes showing appreciation and gratitude for a person.  I should do that with my roommates, its kind of hard when you still need to fill masculine.

The second coming

In reading Mark 13 several versus stand out in telling us to “heed” and “Watch”.  Just to clarify to heed means to give careful attention to. Some of the things that we are told to heed or watch concerning the second coming they are as follows:

Take heed lest any man deceive you (vs. 5)

Take heed to yourselves… (vs. 9)

Take ye heed: behold, I have foretold you all things. (vs. 23)

Take ye heed, watch and pray: for ye know not when the time is. (vs. 33)

Watch ye therefore for ye know not when the master of the house cometh, at even, or at midnight, or at the cockcrowing, or in the morning” (vs. 35)

And what I say unto you I say unto all, Watch. (vs.37)

There are other scriptures that talk about the Lord’s second coming including D&C 87:8 which says to “stand ye in holy places, and be not moved, until the day of the Lord come:” I think this is pertinent in letting us know how to prepare for the second coming.